Archive for May, 2009

God’s Grace

May 29, 2009

I am not writing this to sound like some holier than though holy roller. I am writing this in the hopes that someone might read this and learn something that took me 33 years to get. 

I was saved as a pre-teen in vacation bible school. Church became very scary for me. I felt that everyone in there seemed to be pretty close to perfect and I knew I was far from that and would never be perfect. The further I ran from God the more I needed forgiveness for. I could not forgive myself how could God forgive me.  Why would

Hhe want a relationship with me? A sinner.

What I have learned is that God seeks a relationship with us.  He knows when He saves us all the bad/stupid things you have done, but he also knows all the bad/stupid things we will do.  He still wants a realtionship with us. YOU WILL NEVER BE PERFECT and no one else with be either. It is ok.

When we give our life and heart to God, He lives in us! You will change. You will feel convinction when you sin.  That is Him telling us that is probably not a good decision. 

God makes you clean and new. He forgives you for all your sins.  the hardest part for me is to forgive myself, I think I still struggle with that.

I will close by saying that, God’s grace is amazing.  There is no one worthy of it but yet He gives it to us. WOW! I am glad that I don’t have to run anymore. I know that storms will come my way, but I am building my foundation with Rock and it is anchored in JJesus and when the storms come my house will not fall, but stand.

Thank you God! I love you!


My amazing little brother!!!!!

May 27, 2009

I have the most amazing little brother in the entire world. I am serious! I am so lucky. He is so thoughtful, kind, loving, talented, smart, and Godly! He amazes me every single day. We are very different in a lot of ways and so similar in a lot too! He looks at everything he loves and cherishes with such thought and love. When he cares for someone he wants to know all the small details as much as the big ones. He studies them. The effort and time he puts into his loved ones is incredible. For example, at Christmas, the gift he gave Derrick, Devan and I were the most amazing ever. It’s like he paitently studied and listened to us and then thoughtfully found the perfect gifts for each of us. It wasn’t these huge expensive gifts–it was life changing gifts.

I was out shopping with him yesterday and he totally amazed me for the one millionth time….he was looking for a “gift” for the most special person in his life. He studied each item with such love… Now, I am a spontaneous person. I see something I love and I am like lets get it today…right now. Nope not him, he searched, studied and thought about each and every thing he looked at. Oh, I love him so much!

I have not one doubt that the “gift” he picks will be beyone perfect.